i havent been here in what seems like forever.The reason is i haven't been staying at home and so my all time companion-my computer- is not with me I really feel cut off without my photoshop and illustrator.I never knew i was that attached to it until today when i decided to add an entry,then i realized i cant even add pictures because i dont have any image editor on this pc.

i hate it when its really hot and sticky outside and you start feeling dizzy when youre not supposed to be  that happens to me like everyday when i come back from school.Especially after lunch.
I should be shopping for eid clothes today,i dont want to be shopping during ramadhan.So i think thats what im going to be doing today.Cheerio

I got an invitation to the Jewelry Arabia exhibition,and i just cant wait!I think the best of all jewels is pearl.I really adore pearls,i can look at them forever.I also like diamonds alot ,but theyve become too common,pearls still look royal.I wonder how all these things got their value.If no one knew what a pearl was,im sure no one would even care to dive so deep into the ocean to find a small little white ball.

lunch ?

I had an IQ test,at web tickle.My results were rather satisfying.

"Your IQ score is 122
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results. "

I made a new illustration,titled : Complicated.The picture speaks for itself.

Off to dinner now.Bon nuit.

ive been living the stupid school routine life these days,its so depressingthe only reason i bare it is the thought that im doing all this for the last time inshala.

I've been eating alot of sushi these days..actually handrolls!They say sushi is in fashion,i actually believe it.I never used to hear so much about sushi like i do now.I guess its a trend. i however happen to luuuuv edamame.It's like one of my favourite flavours for more info about edamame visit http://www.edamame.com/.

my so called coconut smoothie (tasted like plain milk with a hint of coconut-which was not good-)

my sister is leaving tommorow.Years ago when i was bugged by my sisters i used to wish i was the only daughter,or child.Now,i realize how much of a fool i was when i thought of saying things like that.I wish i could get a whole week to spend with my sisters like we used to when we were younger.I guess thats how it is,you never know how valuable things are until theyre gone.

funny how a little gift can totally change one's emotions  i personally believe a little gift or giveaway is the best form of apologizing or expressing luv.Have you ever had a small box or bag change the way you feel or felt for a quite long time ? i've had it happen many times so the next time you need help confronting someone , just let the gift do the talking .

at a gift shop

ive been doing some work on Illustrator CS.I luved it

Resized,Credits:Computer arts magazine.Issue 101

and that ones done by me

We had a bird , supposedly someting like a cocktail  bird ? anyway,he was a different one.He would copy ringtones,my brother even taught him to move his head in a dancing manner.He seemed rather happy living here..to me atleast .He managed to fly out one day.Well i guess he must be happier flying free,but anyway he wouldnt know how to come back home..So Bye bird.
I wonder how it is for them though,being locked in a cage.Well he was an exception,he roams around the house almost all day long.Though it must be hard to not be able to say what you really want and feel.

I have a habit that i must get over.I tend to stack tons of things that i wont use.I made a promise to myself that i wont get any notebooks .But i couldnt,it was irresistable.

i got a TV set up in my roomso now i can literally rot in my room.I decided not to do that though,it gives me a very useless feeling that i hate.

feeling nutty ?

click,and drag

finally,i tried a tutorial here that i would like to recommend.It was useful
Goodnight now

p.s.Thanks for commenting.

today was just a cool summer day , you spend with family , watching tv and drinking tea .
Played a game with my brothers,Risk.You have four missions to complete around the world,with a limited number of army men.When you conquer on a whole continent,you get a reinforcement (depending on the strength and size of the continent)of army men.I had a hard time understanding the game,but it was fun.My brother gave up before the game ended,but i say i won because i only had 1 mission to go.

watch me as i conquer S.America

i was reading banoota's chain questionarre and i decided to pass it on,  here's mine :

the reason why i
listen to music:
1) to fix my mood sometimes;although i know its not the very best thing to do to fix ur mood.
2) inspires me ,especially classical music
3) to kill time in the car sometimes

have the friends i have: theres a special comfort in them.

love the way i love: i give alot to what i love

am optimistic: its always pushes you a step further in life

am pessimistic: sometimes too much optimisim gives you a sudden shock, and i dislike being disappointed.

am contradicting: i dont think i am

am so hard to figure out: i keep many things within my thoughts

am different: am i?

hate myself: when i do things,knowing i'll regret doing later,also when i think too much about simple things

love myself: when i'm truly satisfied with myself and my religious state

hate people: when they lie

love people: they add joy to life,not all people though

interested in ______ : web design,computer graphics,Flash,hand bag design-didnt start with that yet-,and the marine life(believe it,or not)

my friends, i chose them because:
they are: not hypocrites,not that i know of
they make me: cheer up,think of my life in a better way
they help me: when i need help
they are: my friends ;p

why i'm afraid of
the world: sometimes i feel its a wicked place,full of people with wicked feelings.but that feeling soon goes away.
myself: i dont think i am
my family: not afraid of them either,theyre safer than myself el7emdella.
my friends: not all friends,but some friends im careful with,you cant trust everyone around
humiliation: it makes me want to burst into tears infront of everyone,it also makes my face go red,and i wouldnt want people to feel the humiliation but its just too clear to hide.
expectations: sometimes when u have too much of them,youll get disappointed later on
reputations: im not afraid of that,el7emdella.I actually dislike thinking too much of that,some people get too attached to the "reputation" stuff
the unknown: when theres a bad expectation,its horrible.keeps you restless
the dark:well,simply because , 99% of the crimes happen in the dark.
the end: some things have a good end,so im not always afraid of that.As for my life,I always pray to have a good end,and i live to fulfill that prayer,atleast i think i do.

the degrees of my personality:
i'm happy because: i feel blessed sometimes,i also live a life that im happy about,el7emdella.
i'm sad because:i'm not,thank you god
i'm angry because: right now ? im not angry i wouldnt be answering this here if i were.
i'm depressed because: i need a greater purpose in life
i'm suicidal because: im not
i'm afraid because: im not afraid either
i'm shy because: im not very confident,i also have the habit of getting embarassed of things too easily
i'm outgoing because: i'm actually the opposite of that 
i'm brave because: i can ride on the scariest rides.haha no im kidding.I dont think im brave
i'm cowardly because: cant go near our house pet-a bird-,but it bites!
i'm funny because: i cant tell why
i'm likable because: well,i would say i hate harming or hurting anyone around me
i'm despicable because: maybe i nag too much sometimes

the one tiny thing that could change your view on me forever:
I once poked my little brother with a sharp pencil on his cheek when he was asleep,because of a fight we had before he slept.I was 7 by the way.Sorry Ahmed

if I could change one thing about myself, i would: think less

if i could change one thing about the world i would: stop the wars forever,and also help the poor everywhere in the world


when i die, i'll:
miss the most: maybe the time i spent doing silly things
miss the least: all the mistakes i did during my life i guess
worry about: whats happening next ?
not even think about: everything i thought about when i was alive.lol


what this means to me:
love is: trust,honesty,and finding comfort
hate is:disliking the site or sound of someone
fear is: the excitement that makes your stomach twist and turn or ,being left in a cage with a lion 
risk is: often dangerous,also a game,lol
triumph is: being a winner
happiness is: reaching a point where nothing else matters
deception is: very wicked
lies are: disgusting.Theres nothing i hate more than a liar. 
society is: blank
failure is: breaking down
life is: a flower,lol
death is: what decides where you are to live your other life,اللهم ارزقنا حسن الخاتمة
sadness is: the hard lump in your throat that you cannot swallow
truth is: always the harder way out

Whoa,that was long.
So,pass it on to your blog,if you want to.

Have you ever imagined how life would be without electricity ? Well i didnt just imagine , i actually lived the experience today.I woke up after the wave of heat i felt,then i was informed that the electricity has been cut off an hour ago.I sat around for a while.Then i got up and walked around,Couldnt watch TV,couldnt even come online-except for a limited time until my laptop battery died-.So i went back and sat in the same spot i was in a while ago.Minutes later,I remembered it was time to pray..we couldnt even hear the athan,simply because they had no microphone.However,i sat around read,read,and read.I'm staying at my grandmothers house to keep her company,I heard the electricity was back at our house so i decided to go there.The traffic lights werent working!i saw like five accidents on my way home.That was just less then fourth a day,but it was a tragedy.I learned today how to appreciate electricity.So DONT WASTE IT.

(This image was taken by my cousin , Mariyam)

For some reason its just not getting through my head that this will be my last year of school.I've longed for this feeling for a very long time , but now i just cant seem to be so excited about it , its just not hitting meI want it to hit me , so i can feel the excitement.I did join the gym like i had planned yesterday,which is a progress since i have been saying i would join for a week now.I trained well for today , although i totally forgot about the levels , so i put in (5) for the level of difficulty , which was pretty high , when the trainee passed by she was like "are you alright?your level of difficulty is very high."then i realized what stupid mistake i made , and i was like "yea,hehim fine" when i was not fine at all.She put it down to (1),which was pretty embarassing lol.Later on i did the treadmill.I do believe it when they say its bad for the knees , its not really like youre walking on the ground if you think of it.The best part however , is when you get the shower with cold water after working out.I always try my best to shower with cold water , it just doesnt seem to work with me.
Been reading Anne of Green Gables,I dunno why i chose that out of all the books lol.I opened the book cupboard and found that on the top of the pile.I'm glad i did thoughThe imagination is just very fascinating , and little Anne reminds me of myself somehow.If you haven't read this book before,you should.Although it may seem like a kids book , it is something you should read.Off to sleep now,Good night.

at the gym

Anne of Green Gables

Spent the whole day watching the Olympics , from Womens Trampoline to Mens handball.Spending too much time at home does do wonders .I really enjoy watching the trampoline stuff though , it must feel so good flying into the air and landing down on your feet to fly up again.I'm joining the gym tommorow,to spend my time doing something better than watching sports on tv.Made a Snack , or just a burger.

Flying ?

Thats my fish, feather

Yay  I'm extra excited about this journal.First because its pretty neat,second,because i didnt really work on anything except changing colors and allSorry everyone about the commercials up there,I know theyre extra annoying.I know i need to get a .com,but i dont want to start one with the information i have now,thats why i decided to join a web design course and learn some more,then start a new .com that i can feel good aboutThe smilies here are just incredible its hard to decide.